October 2010
9 posts
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Not A Decision
What I’ve never agreed with optimists: feelings are a decision. One of my professors brought this belief up — that pessimists are the way they are because they allow themselves to be that way. They want to complain, mope, and be depressed. Instead, they could have chosen to be happy about situations, even the bad ones.
I beg to differ. Being a pessimist doesn’t mean that...
So Glad
I’m so glad you’re not here anymore by my side when things like this happen.
I can’t imagine running to you for comfort.
I can’t imagine what you’d say to me, knowing that you don’t know the pains in life.
Because all you know is yourself and your happy family.
I’m so glad you’re gone.
Because you wouldn’t understand or even try.
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Happiness VS Dreams
When I’m loving life, I rarely have any recollection of dreams — at most once a week.
When I’m sad or living a normal life, I dream every single night.
I remembered when life was pretty happy for me. I remembered realizing that I hadn’t dreamt for weeks. I was a bit sad and every night before I went to bed, I prayed to myself that I will dream of something. Anything. But...
Dreaming Of You
I feel rather romantic this morning/tonight. Well, it’s 2:05 A.M. but I’ll call it night. I feel like sharing something from my heart. Something that’s not brutal or fierce — but something that floats aloft and gently into the windswept breeze.
I would go on and about how I feel right now, but I feel so much at bliss now after crying for some time over personal...
10.19.10
When I mentally do not feel well, somehow I physically feel sick.
It’s just one of those times where I just want to knock myself out and sleep forever.
"Girl Gamer"
Something that had irked me: when people makes it a huge deal that girls play video games. No, I’m not talking about the guys that go, “OMG YOU PLAY GAMES?” Although I hate that too because that means the guy most likely had never been in contact with another female. Girls do play games. But that’s not the point of this post; my annoyance is usually from the opposite sex:...
How Life Tells You "You Fail"
I locked myself out of my car which is the most silly thing that had ever happened to me— especially since it’s me. Usually, I am not a forgetful person but today, life decided to prove me wrong and I am wrong to have challenged the forces of the unknown entities in this world.
So the one day in which I wore a light sweater to help out with work for around an hour (it was chilly this...
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How Things Appear To Be
Imagine being alone. Imagine constantly finding yourself at the safety of your home with no one else. Now imagine going to school everyday and coming straight home afterwords with little to no communication with others students. Eventually, the isolation will start to get to you. Sadly I’ve grown accustomed to it.
I used to think I was at least slightly special. I used to think I was deep...
"Trying"
I don’t type or blog as much. I don’t really have much to say actually. So I’ll just write some random things.
Although I would be a bit down, depressed, and any other emotion related to that, today turned out to be a good day. I didn’t want to spend the day with anyone or do anything despite asking Hunter to lunch. I woke up a little before one but didn’t get out of...
